Release...

So I've just had a talk with a roommate of mine that I haven't exactly gotten along with throughout the semester. I could never pin down a specific problem, but things always seemed tense I guess. She just came and talked to me about things that have been going on all semester. Basically, I have been doing stuff and not doing stuff that I haven't even been aware of that has made her think that I'm a terrible person! When she told me I thought about it, and I realized that it was all true. It was stuff that I never even thought about. For example, when we drive to church, I have been walking way ahead of her and my other roommate. I sort of realized this, because I'm naturally a fast walker, but to her it made it seem like I didn't want to be seen with her or something. This totally makes sense, but I didn't even realize it until she pointed it out. She also pointed out that I haven't said thank you for things that she's done for me, namely giving me rides to church. There's absolutely no excuse for that one. I didn't realize I wasn't doing it, but I definitely should have. There's other stuff too, but basically I feel bad that all this tension came down to some small things that if I had noticed I was doing, I could have fixed them and we would have had a much more pleasant semester. I've racked my brain sometimes trying to figure it out, what it is that I could be doing wrong. All this time, I had no idea...I'm glad she ended up saying something to me though, so at least I can fix it for what's left of the semester. I can understand why she would not have said something though, because they seem like such small things, but the small things add up, especially over time. I probably would have reacted in a similar way. I'm mainly posting this to kind of clear my head, because when someone approaches you in a certain way asking to talk to you and you get that gut wrenching feeling with a side of fear? That's kind of what I'm trying to release right now...It just goes to show that I am once again being reminded of things that I need to do better. I really should show appreciation more. It doesn't really do anyone any good if I'm the only one that knows that I'm appreciative of something.